Sometimes, I think if there is a God, he likes playing hide and seek too much. Of course we must seek him out, but when we do seek, why does it seem like he isn't always there? It's like he's gone and hid himself in another universe we don't have access to. I think someone ought to re-explain the rules to him or to me, because somewhere...it all got confused.
Being alone in a crowded place...a contradiction. I have become a walking contradiction. I have begun to start laughing when I should be crying, crying when I should be laughing, and angry when I should be playing. Everything is backwards. I'M backwards.
I wish I were not real. That I could escape completely into the world of the characters all around me.
Alone in the crowd, darkness in light, death in life. Death...I wish I were dead, I wish I had the courage to die.
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