Truth

Dear God,
People tell me that you are real. That you created all that I can see, hear, think, feel, touch...everything. That your love is infinite. That I should trust you.

But guess what? I think they're liars. Because, if you are real and your love is so infinite, then why did you let me get raped? Why do you let wars happen? Why is there genocide? Why is there abuse anywhere, of any kind?

And honestly, the answer that I'm given is bullshit. Do you honestly expect me to believe that you letting people suffer in order to prove themselves worthy of reaching heaven is an acceptable answer? It's just not. Why not let people prove themselves worthy by the good they can do for each other? Letting evil exist so that people have a "refiner's fire" experience in their life? YOU LET EVIL EXIST. If you were real and everything they say you are, then you would never let evil exist. My heavenly parent? No. No loving parent would ever stand by and watch their child get hurt without lifting a finger to stop it.

You don't exist. Whatever it is that possessed people to believe in you, THAT was evil. People say that "Satan" will tell a thousand truths just to get you to believe one lie. But I think they forget that that applies to everyone. If you were perfect, you wouldn't let evil happen. So you must be capable of lies, too. You are a lie.

A lie I am tired of being afraid of.

Un-affectionately,
SarahRae