Rage

Headaches seem to be constant. And constantly shading everything red. Anger is almost constantly beating at the back of my head, and when it takes over my headache gets worse because my whole head pounds with the force of my anger on TOP of the headache. And anything is likely to set me off. Especially my own thoughts. Cutting numbs all of this but I've suppressed the urge since the last post. I don't think it's going to last much longer. I finally found a container to collect my blood so that I can write with it with my calligraphy pen.