Silently Screaming As Always

Everything is so messed up. And I'm losing my ability to care. I tried to put myself out there but that was a mistake. I tried to be kind and THAT was a mistake. Everything keeps blowing up in my face. I just want to be able to be...me. Whoever that is. Because I don't know anymore. And my shrink says that's what I have to figure out from our sessions together, but I don't even know if that is possible. All I DO know is that I should have stayed in.